3 AM

This is becoming a habit, a bad habit. I find myself awake at 3am each morning. Why is this body so quick to add this new wake up call? I was finally becoming able to sleep through the night without getting up to go to the bathroom. Then the granddaughters came for a visit, and I wanted to check on them in the middle of the night. It was cold. I wanted them covered. So I woke myself up in the middle of the night for them. My sleep pattern was altered and I am having a difficult time getting back to a night of full sleep.

Not that I am not using this time wisely. Like the other night, during those quiet, dark moments I was inspired to rearrange lessons in order to fit in a stem activity on snow shoes. No sense wasting all this snow. Sometimes I use this reprieve from sleep to pray, or count in French, or rehash the past day and plan the next day. Sometimes I try to control my breathing, or relax different parts of my body. Most of the time I worry. Why do things always seem worse in the middle of the night? I just want a couple more houts of sleep. If I didn’t have to work the next day, maybe I would sit up and read. Equally bad is when you do fall back to sleep soundly and the annoying alarm shakes you out of your dreams. I like being able to sleep through the night, so I hope I can retrain myself soon.

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8 thoughts on “3 AM

  1. It’s a mystery why we get into a pattern of interrupted sleep. I find in the days following I have fatigue that affects everything.

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  2. I hate the middle of the night wake ups! A friend a few years older than me insists this is my new normal- ugh! I loved your descriptions of all you might do while awake and share a few. The hardest thing is knowing when to admit defeat and turn on a light.

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  3. It is so hard to function the day after an interrupted night, however productive one is during the wee hours! I hope you find a solution, too…I’m yawning, just thinking about your predicament.

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  4. I often wake up between 3:00-4:00 a.m. It’s an exciting day when I haven’t been awake in the middle of the night. Most nights I can fall back to sleep quickly but there are many nights when I do some of the same things you write about. Sleep well tonight!

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  5. “Why do things always seem worse in the middle of the night?” Yes! This is such a true question that we all struggle with. You’re not alone and your worries are from such a loving heart! Wishing you peace tonight!

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  6. I really like the list of how you have been spending those dark hours. It makes it easy to picture, and to see both sides of a frustrating new habit. I have a small baby so I have been thinking a lot about how to approach those wee hours, too.

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  7. Your nighttime wakefulness made me think of something I find fascinating. It’s called “segmented sleep.” Turns out that pre Industrialization, we may have had a middle of the night wakeful period. This settles me down when my sleep cycles change. Here’s a quote from the article I’ll link to in case you’re interested: “in the preindustrial world. The historical evidence indicates that people in the Middle Ages were up for an hour or more in the middle of the night and thought of sleep as occurring in two segments: first sleep and second sleep. In many ways, this makes sense because being awake during the night has certain advantages. At that time, one could stoke the fire, check the defenses, have sex, and tell tall tales.” https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/sleepless-in-america/201609/in-the-middle-the-night-it-may-be-natural

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    1. Thank you. I think now that I have more info about sleep, I will have less worry. Loved the article.

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