SOL#17 -Day 18
I think because it has taken me two days to think about if I am a planner or not, speaks for itself. As a teacher I am definitely looking ahead always. But in the day to day class room, I sometimes have to be ready to switch lessons up at a moments notice. But I have also had those back up plans in my head too. So I do do both. At heart though I am the planner. I was the one in college working on the long term assignments in steps over time. Because I had always worked starting in high school, I realized that I had to do my homework when I had time – not always just when I wanted to do them. I wanted to keep my job, I liked the cash, and I was competitive. I wanted to keep doing well in school. I have never been able to pull all-nighters, cramming for tests, but always studied everyday in order to be ready for the exam.
I feel stress when I can’t plan. It is interesting that when in my thirties I took a full time waitress job, the stress I felt at first. That is a job where you cannot plan a week ahead. So every day I used to literally get sick before going to work. But once the shift started and I could start managing my tables I would feel great. I held forms of this job for ten years and was a good waitress, despite having nightmares of setting and unsetting my bedside table. I would wake to find my clock and the book I was reading on the floor.
Then I came upon my dream job, teaching. I needed to do planning in order to succeed. I love preparing and sometimes over preparing. As one of my colleagues once told me, “There will always be more to do.” Now I am learning to set limits for my own time in the classroom. I am trying to be more efficient and of course – better prepared.